Irrational
Do you ever experience irrational dread? An all encompassing, ice pit in your gut, vice around your chest feeling that stops you from even daring to move because you're convinced that if you do you're going to trigger something awful, kind of irrational dread? Because this is how I feel every time I use my laptop. I know that sounds very ridiculous; it's just a wedge of plastic, glass and electronic bits (can you tell I'm very IT illiterate?) There's nothing about the object which should trigger any kind of emotional response other than a slight irritation when the Wifi is slow. But the feeling isn't really about my laptop, its just what I've come to associate my laptop with. I finally came to the end of my time in education in September 2020. Up until that point, all I had associated with my laptop (or computers in general) was school or uni work, watching Netflix and YouTube, or occasionally scrolling social media if my phone was dead. For most of my time ...